So as you can see in reading my journal so far, my attitude has changed and I'm getting nicer towards others. I'm also getting my relationship back with the Lord. Not saying I'm still going to have bad days. It was just VERY difficult being around other addicts 24 hours a day. So in saying that. Now I was understanding how my family felt to be around me when I was drunk.

Day 16 : This place just annoys me. It's like being in High school all over again with the drama and little clicks. It's just these two girls here and the way they act just really gets down my spine. I shouldn't care, but it's hard when I'm living with them. I just hope they stay sober when they leave here because I do know that they both travel for work and stay in hotels A LOT. That's a very lonely time and very extra amount of time on your hands to drink.

Day 17:  Today was a pretty good day. It was Jocelyn's coin ceremony and she leaves in the morning so Forest is taking over the AA meetings. Tonight is the 2nd night taking my upped dosages of nightmare meds. She has upped it 2 times now. I really don't like how it makes me feel. It makes me feel stoned and it makes me look like I'm stoned. But it keeps the nightmares away sometimes. The Dr said that it's just my body getting used to the meds because they've had to up my dosages on everything. I found out today that my go home date is supposed to be at the end of August. And it seems forever away from today but I know without a doubt that I need more therapy before I leave here.

Day 18: Today I am 24 days sober. I honestly don't remember how long it's been since I've went this long without drinking. Small therapy went pretty lame. Amanda the therapist is very hateful to people she's not their regualr therapist.  She talks to people like they are lesser than she is. Tonight was movie night and I didn't go. I swear, it's only a time where the girls sit by their favorite boys. Am I in 4th grade again? Movie nights are getting out of control. I usually go get popcorn and come back here to my room to read. Half the people here will relapse the 1st week they go home.

Thank you for reading my blog,
See you tomorrow on my next 3 days of rehab.

xoxoxo, Michelle Neal