Day 10 : It was NOT a good day today. A went to all classes and AA. I've been reading a lot in my spare time and it's so nice to be back into reading again instead of drinking all the time. I'm reading Twilight the 1st book hahaha. I made it to chapter 8 already. I've seen the movies 1000s of times but I'm really enjoying reading it. Me and my roommate talked for awhile before bed and it was nice. There was a fire alarm today around 10am and I was in the shower as it went off. A worker, "Leah" the one who is always mean to me, would not let me get dressed to go outside. So I had to wrap a towel around me and go outside NAKED with just a towel around me in front of all the workers, Male residents and female residents. I was humiliated! I'm sure that has to be illegal in some sense. Some of the girl residents were wrapping blankets around me to make me feel better. You know this place really needs some fixing. I wouldn't treat my cat that way.

Day 11: It was a good day. I went to all classes which I always do and AA. Bedtime is nice. I really like visiting with my roommate at bedtime. She is so nice and easy to talk to. But!!!! I have been snoring SOOOO bad since I started on this nightmare medication LOL I keep waking up my roommate and she literally has to get out of bed to wake me up to turn over. Then around 5:30 am, I had a horrible nightmare. This demon walked to my bed and was shaking my bed furiously. Taunting me, yelling at me. I was so scared and was yelling in my dream so loud, I woke myself up screaming. I thought I was awake when it was happening, but I was asleep. I also woke up my roommate screaming. I feel so bad for her either waking her up each night from snoring or screaming LOL. Other than that. We do yoga every other Sunday. The yoga lady is nice and the yoga is harder than I thought it would be. But she comes around the room when you're laying on your back and she rubs lavender on your temples and it feels so good. I've also been walking on the treadmill and doing stretches in gym.

Day 12: Today I tried my best to not focus on the trouble makers around here, but instead praying for them in private. We are all here because of an addiction and I'm no better than any other person here. Just have to keep in my mind that we all have different mental struggles and I notice how hateful I can be with my thinking. It's my final chance to get my life right or I'm going to end up dead in a ditch or come up missing like mom. I have to see it as God strengthening me to handle better how to be around others that I don't agree completely with. Need to pray more for myself.

Thank you for reading my blog,
See you Monday on my next 3 days of rehab.

xoxoxo, Michelle Neal